It's self confidence, baby!
I took pen to paper in my Self Confidence Workbook, so my life began to bloom. From M.I.A. newsletter to G.O.A.T self confidence, I'm elated to share my biggest accomplishments from last month!
The elephant in my room is that I sent you no emails in the month of February. My emotions are quite across the board about this. I feel really bad for not reaching out, because some of you have actually given me money in exchange for my weekly newsletter. I might think about this exchange on an unmerited level. On the other side of my coin (aka on my butt!) I feel proud of myself for maintaining a solid baseline of mental, physical and emotional health while navigating some exciting and nerve-wracking moments.
It’s a win for me, because I kept prioritizing sleeping (listed as “most valued trait” on my bumble profile), eating, taking meds, seeking help, being vulnerable and taking at least one daily step toward my goals.
Fiona’s February 2024 highlights:
-attended a single & solo Lesbian Nightlife Event, where I made many new queer friends
-created art everyday (from daily sketchbook pages to balloon installations)
-started a new job
-wrote myself my first owner draw check
-enjoyed weekly one to two hours walks in nature
-walked 6 miles in one go
-bought tickets to see Girl in Red in April
-saw The Beaches live and now I want to be the punk girlie of my dreams who goes to shows, crowd surfs and gives the patriarchy the bird
-applied for 5-day artist retreat in Vermont this summer (spoiler, accepted and going!)
-after I spent all of January telling people I wanted corporate clients again and one called me up, after three of their friends recommended TPB.
FEBRUARY WAS A KICK ASS MONTH!!!
How did this happen?
I blew dust off and cracked open The Self Confidence Workbook on February 1. I know this because I’ve gone back in my journal. The writing’s on the wall, so look at moiiiiii.
I want to tell you all the details in my cute and lovely illustrated newsletter. That version of the newsletter keeps getting stuck, even though it’s what I truly want… With great relief I share this new version of my newsletter no longer exists solely in my head, but the battle with perfectionism (and all my demons lol) has yet to be won.
The situation has been snowballing at a snail’s pace, thank god. Armed with coping mechanisms and healthy habits, I can accept I didn’t write to you for the last 4+ weeks. At the same time, I have the strength to make a new choice. Choosing differently takes courage, plus the process tends tot be terrifying. Looking back at me one moth ago, I can already see how my life has drastically improved.
Another day will not pass before I press send. I’ve re-dusted-off the workbook. Embarking on chapter two, because I’m the woman who starts AND I’m the woman who keeps going. When I struggle with something I know I’m completely capable of, like writing this newsletter, there is one solution: Lower the barrier to entry.
It’s March 2024, therefore I’ve been in recovery for three and a half years. How incredible is that?! I’m proud of myself. I also love this version of me more than any other, because I’m at peace.
We will talk again soon,
